Welcome back to my blog. It’s 2021! Happy New Year! Before you start reading, please press play. This is what I’m listening right now. Within Temptation is my all time favorite band and I feel like this song fits my article perfectly. And I hope it will get you closer to me.
Wow! 2020 was a crazy ride for sure! We’ve been through so much, right? But we survived and we’ve grown so much! I’m proud of you, for staying strong and not loosing faith. I don’t want to be mad at 2020. I want to remain positive and make the best out of what life gives me. Always. The pandemic made us stay inside for two months straight. At first, I was scared. I was watching the news and got so scared that at a certain point, I had a panic attack because the future seemed so uncertain and scary. I also cried alot, not for me necessarily, but for the whole world, because I felt all the sadness the Earth was going through. But I don’t want to be ungrateful, because it could’ve been much worse than it was. I learned to be a “go with the flow” type of person, even though at first, I still want to fight. “I fight for what I want.” is one of my mantras but I can’t always be in a fight mode. Sometimes I just need to accept the situation and let the storm pass. Maybe that’s why, for me, 2020 was actually a good year, even though we weren’t allowed to do many things, like travelling abroad, being with our families and friends, having Christmas markets or parties. 2020 brought me many accomplishments and I am very grateful for every opportunity this year gave me. And that’s because the lockdown gave me time to return to myself and what I love the most – creating – and I focused on that. And when you’re doing what you love, beautiful things start to show up. And I don’t want to go back to the old me. I want to keep doing the thing that 2020 taught me to – always turn back to myself. That’s why I got a self love tattoo this year. Now, I would really like to make a short list with things I’m grateful for in 2020.
I’m grateful that me and my family are safe and healthy and that no one is sick.
I’m grateful for my relationship. Raoul is my best friend and I’m so happy to call him my lover. This year we will celebrate our 10th anniversary.
I’m grateful that I was able to work and didn’t lost my job due to the pandemic.
I’m grateful for being able to attend my graduation even though only this year I will get my official degree.
I’m grateful that I have a roof over my head, clothes to wear and food on my table.
I’m grateful that I got to spend a few days at the seaside.
I’m grateful that my account reached 10 K followers this year.
I’m grateful that The Fresh Dolls offered me such a big opportunity, to work as a photographer.
I’m grateful that I managed to decorate my doll room and bought a new shelf.
I’m grateful that I got to snowboard for the first time and I got my first tattoos this year.
I’m also very grateful for all the dolls I bought and received in 2020.
And last but not least, I’m grateful for both the good and bad moments of 2020. Because the good moments brought me joy and happiness and the bad ones brought me strength and growth.
I really hope 2021 will be at least that good. And I wish for the pandemic to be over because I know how much people it has affected.
I hope 2021 will be good to us. I hope we will grow stronger and wiser and I hope we can spread more kindness and love over this world. I wish you nothing but the best!
PS: For 2021 there will be a few changes around here. I will publish my articles on Sunday.